29th December 2006,
4.20pm. Friday, Oooooh...gonna be holidays soon, and renovation gonna be end soon. Am so excited!! Can't wait for the holidays. Am planning for a trip to Ipoh tomorrow after half day work. Will be following Leong. He will be driving us: Phei, Ai Ling, myself to Kuala Kangsar first before Ipoh. Not sure what's the plan like... We gonna visit Cindy and her mum first. Phei will be staying with Cindy till New Year, to be there helping out, spending time and be a support to her and her mum.
I've not been visiting Cindy's mum. She has been diagnosed with Uterus CA pass months ago, and has been going in and out of hospital for treatment. This reminds me of my dad's condition, and the flashback comes into my mind. It's not easy, never been easy for a CA patient. Our family has gone thru' it in hard way..full of emotional turmoils, a lot of heartache and crying, ..not sure what is the purpose of all that had happened to my daddy, yet, God is still God, Man is still man. He makes all things beautiful in His time, He holds the eternity. We learned to treasure relationship, appreciate life, and see life in a different perspective thru' this experience. It makes us stronger.... I may be a negative type, but am learning, in every circumstances- to appreciate things and always be thankful in all circumstances. I'm not sure how I will react when I see a CA patient, only a prayer...only to pray. Ps. Prem Kumar passed away few days ago. The transplant doesn't work...he's so young and yet he not able to sustain. Sometimes, am just wondering...Why this can happen? It sadden me, to see good people suffers, ..but yet, God has His reason...His plans are higher than us, His thought is higher than our thought...
Friday, December 29, 2006
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
Christmas is Over..New Year is Coming...
26th December 2006,
5.16pm Tuesday. Christmas is over, New Year is approaching....Willl be growing another year in 2007....Yucks! Gonna touch "3"..Oh No!!! Sob Sob... Am excited for 2007, but not of not of the growing age :PP
Indeed this year Christmas rather quiet. Most of my friends went back hometown. But am occupied with lots' of happenings. 23rd (Sat) : having lunch with my trainee after work, then went to Angel's Christmas Party at Miami Green, Bt. Ferringhi. Sunday, 24th-church, and I am ushering. After church had lunch with group of frens to hv farewell for Alicia (she's going to KL to work), then went back paint house. Evening follow mum to her church (Amazing Grace), then meet up frens for a drink- end up countdown near Queensbay. 25th Christmas Service, and am ushering again. After that had lunch with mum and Ai Ling, then back home paint house..(finally finished painting whole living room). Then night- 2 frens came to my house for dinner.
Pretty tired today. The Pharmacy was on renovation for the front counters, and this will carry on till new year. Whole lot of dusts and gum-smell, really nausea-ing. Jan 2007 we will have new look: open counter concept. Am excited- at least something different. The staff very much excited as well, and they are quite patience despite the noises and knocking,..but this gonna be temporary, just to bear for 4.5 days..it worth the wait.
Appraisal time almost done, this 28th gonna have Vision Casting with the Staff. Am gonna reshuffle job descriptions and brain-storming for future improvement for Yr 2007. Really need God's wisdom and guidance. I really hope that the staff will able to catch the vision, and take the "Ownership" in the job they are entrusted on. Learning, am learning in human management..to be wise as serpent, and innocent as dove. Yr 2007..Yeah, I gonna hv another 3-years contract, so I gonna still stay in GMC, till God moves me, if the time comes.......probably it's time to really sit down and re-evaluate my life...see how far have I gone, and where to move from here....
5.16pm Tuesday. Christmas is over, New Year is approaching....Willl be growing another year in 2007....Yucks! Gonna touch "3"..Oh No!!! Sob Sob... Am excited for 2007, but not of not of the growing age :PP
Indeed this year Christmas rather quiet. Most of my friends went back hometown. But am occupied with lots' of happenings. 23rd (Sat) : having lunch with my trainee after work, then went to Angel's Christmas Party at Miami Green, Bt. Ferringhi. Sunday, 24th-church, and I am ushering. After church had lunch with group of frens to hv farewell for Alicia (she's going to KL to work), then went back paint house. Evening follow mum to her church (Amazing Grace), then meet up frens for a drink- end up countdown near Queensbay. 25th Christmas Service, and am ushering again. After that had lunch with mum and Ai Ling, then back home paint house..(finally finished painting whole living room). Then night- 2 frens came to my house for dinner.
Pretty tired today. The Pharmacy was on renovation for the front counters, and this will carry on till new year. Whole lot of dusts and gum-smell, really nausea-ing. Jan 2007 we will have new look: open counter concept. Am excited- at least something different. The staff very much excited as well, and they are quite patience despite the noises and knocking,..but this gonna be temporary, just to bear for 4.5 days..it worth the wait.
Appraisal time almost done, this 28th gonna have Vision Casting with the Staff. Am gonna reshuffle job descriptions and brain-storming for future improvement for Yr 2007. Really need God's wisdom and guidance. I really hope that the staff will able to catch the vision, and take the "Ownership" in the job they are entrusted on. Learning, am learning in human management..to be wise as serpent, and innocent as dove. Yr 2007..Yeah, I gonna hv another 3-years contract, so I gonna still stay in GMC, till God moves me, if the time comes.......probably it's time to really sit down and re-evaluate my life...see how far have I gone, and where to move from here....
Friday, December 22, 2006
It's Christmas Mood now
22th December 2006,
Christmas...It's Christmas- a season of joy to share..and hope and love to the others. I just received this picture from my CG fren- it's our EPCC carolling team. This year we went to Shopping Mall to bless the community- Prangin Mall, Gurney, and tonite will be Queensbay the newest Shopping Complex. Look at the wonderful people that sing out with their heart, full of joy and hope for such time like this. Look at the smiles, awesome huh? They's wonderful, wearing full gowning in white, look so esthetic :PP
Christmas Mood- tonite I'll be joining Emmeline and Jerry to Queensmall, gonna have dinner there, and see the carollers performing. Blessed Chrismas!
Christmas...It's Christmas- a season of joy to share..and hope and love to the others. I just received this picture from my CG fren- it's our EPCC carolling team. This year we went to Shopping Mall to bless the community- Prangin Mall, Gurney, and tonite will be Queensbay the newest Shopping Complex. Look at the wonderful people that sing out with their heart, full of joy and hope for such time like this. Look at the smiles, awesome huh? They's wonderful, wearing full gowning in white, look so esthetic :PP
Christmas Mood- tonite I'll be joining Emmeline and Jerry to Queensmall, gonna have dinner there, and see the carollers performing. Blessed Chrismas!
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
Christmas Maniac
19th December 2006,
6.00pm Tuesday evening. Finishing blog before go back. Uploaded some pictures in my Friendster- yeah, Christmas celebration picture. Dunno why, have some problems uploading picture, probably because the pictures size too large, or wrong formating. Not able to install new program to resize pictures, so got to make do of what I have here.
Was on-leave yesterday. Went to hospital with mum, to pass the sputum sample for culture and sensitivity test. Mum had cough for long time, almost a month and the Lung X-Ray shown to have few white spots. She has been taking antibiotic, hopefully it will lessen the cough. Or else, will take her to GMC for further check-up. After hospital, we went for dim-sum at Anson road, then went to Gurney for shopping. Manage to get a new shoe for mum- as Christmas present. After shopping, we went to buy paint- planning to repaint house. "Orchid White", nice colour huh? Went back home, trying to take out old paint...climbing high and low..oh, my hands so painful now, muscle aching, whole body aching. I plan to paint the entire whole house during the festive season-Christmas. Wanna make use of the holidays to get the "home Improvement" done. And now...am just not sure can finish in 2 days time. To get rid of the old paint for one wall has taken me half the day...Oh Gosh, ...can I make it?
I've attended 2 Christmas Party recently- Desa U CG (my ex-CG), and Zion CG (my ex-multiplied CG), and this Wednesday (tomorrow) ginna attend another Chrismas Party for Abundance CG. Joining too many Cgs' outreach makes me real tired..but yet it's fun. The 2 Cgs were very active and youthful, a lot of energy to play..to eat and to sing. Maybe I'm just too old, get tired easily with many programs. Phei asked me to join Carolling at Queesnbay Mall on 21st...Gosshh..I really don't think so. Had been joining Zion CG outreach last Sunday- caroling in the Jubliee Old Folks home. Very nice place, clean environment and spacious hall. Even with the might, our voices doesn't seem to fill the entire hall. But, hmm...we enjoyed ourselves a lot. Spending time with the old folks, and talking and listening to them. Indeed very fruitful day!
Yet, Christmas is not just about Caroling, Gifts, party, fun-time..Christmas is about Christ. His GIFT to us, and what is out gift to Him? It's a time to pause and reflecting back His goodness, our journey thru' life. To move forward- forgetting what lies behind, and moving forward for a better 2007, a better growing, more growth in our Spiritual life, to know Him more.
6.00pm Tuesday evening. Finishing blog before go back. Uploaded some pictures in my Friendster- yeah, Christmas celebration picture. Dunno why, have some problems uploading picture, probably because the pictures size too large, or wrong formating. Not able to install new program to resize pictures, so got to make do of what I have here.
Was on-leave yesterday. Went to hospital with mum, to pass the sputum sample for culture and sensitivity test. Mum had cough for long time, almost a month and the Lung X-Ray shown to have few white spots. She has been taking antibiotic, hopefully it will lessen the cough. Or else, will take her to GMC for further check-up. After hospital, we went for dim-sum at Anson road, then went to Gurney for shopping. Manage to get a new shoe for mum- as Christmas present. After shopping, we went to buy paint- planning to repaint house. "Orchid White", nice colour huh? Went back home, trying to take out old paint...climbing high and low..oh, my hands so painful now, muscle aching, whole body aching. I plan to paint the entire whole house during the festive season-Christmas. Wanna make use of the holidays to get the "home Improvement" done. And now...am just not sure can finish in 2 days time. To get rid of the old paint for one wall has taken me half the day...Oh Gosh, ...can I make it?
I've attended 2 Christmas Party recently- Desa U CG (my ex-CG), and Zion CG (my ex-multiplied CG), and this Wednesday (tomorrow) ginna attend another Chrismas Party for Abundance CG. Joining too many Cgs' outreach makes me real tired..but yet it's fun. The 2 Cgs were very active and youthful, a lot of energy to play..to eat and to sing. Maybe I'm just too old, get tired easily with many programs. Phei asked me to join Carolling at Queesnbay Mall on 21st...Gosshh..I really don't think so. Had been joining Zion CG outreach last Sunday- caroling in the Jubliee Old Folks home. Very nice place, clean environment and spacious hall. Even with the might, our voices doesn't seem to fill the entire hall. But, hmm...we enjoyed ourselves a lot. Spending time with the old folks, and talking and listening to them. Indeed very fruitful day!
Yet, Christmas is not just about Caroling, Gifts, party, fun-time..Christmas is about Christ. His GIFT to us, and what is out gift to Him? It's a time to pause and reflecting back His goodness, our journey thru' life. To move forward- forgetting what lies behind, and moving forward for a better 2007, a better growing, more growth in our Spiritual life, to know Him more.
The Gift of Friendship
19th December 2006,
The Gift of Friendship
(Extracted from Gavin Chin)
The gift of friendship is a very special thing
As we never know what will happen when we untie the strings,
As together we begin to grow,
Go slowly and gently reveals the heart He already knows.
The gift of Friendship is a special gift given by the Lord above,
And allow to take its course, it can develop the beauty of a drove,
It's not a gift to be judge by the beauty of one's face,
But the beauty of the heart and how it reveals God's grace.
For friendship is more than two people who find things to share,
It's a gift given by God to show how much He cares,
For within the heart of each Christian Friend God gives us,
The qualities of God which are loving, caring and just.
Friendship is a gift given by God, to bring comfort on the road we walk
As together we travel through the strains of life, as we begin to talk,
Friendship is the gift through which God help us carry the load,
As together through the trails of life, by the grace of God we grow.
So its often when I pray for you, that I thank the Lord for you,
And all the times you've been there to help me struggle through,
I also pray that there be many more blessings to share together,
As we continue to travel along the same road together.
The Gift of Friendship
(Extracted from Gavin Chin)
The gift of friendship is a very special thing
As we never know what will happen when we untie the strings,
As together we begin to grow,
Go slowly and gently reveals the heart He already knows.
The gift of Friendship is a special gift given by the Lord above,
And allow to take its course, it can develop the beauty of a drove,
It's not a gift to be judge by the beauty of one's face,
But the beauty of the heart and how it reveals God's grace.
For friendship is more than two people who find things to share,
It's a gift given by God to show how much He cares,
For within the heart of each Christian Friend God gives us,
The qualities of God which are loving, caring and just.
Friendship is a gift given by God, to bring comfort on the road we walk
As together we travel through the strains of life, as we begin to talk,
Friendship is the gift through which God help us carry the load,
As together through the trails of life, by the grace of God we grow.
So its often when I pray for you, that I thank the Lord for you,
And all the times you've been there to help me struggle through,
I also pray that there be many more blessings to share together,
As we continue to travel along the same road together.
Saturday, December 16, 2006
Busy week
16th December 2006,
4.00pm Saturday, here I am in the hospital, still working wor...It's our annual stock taking. Even though I'm the superior and not entitled for OT, I still stay back, yeah...why leh? Coz wanna make sure subordinate doing thing well, and to be there at least to encourage them to work.
Am so tired, for the past 2 days has not been sleeping well. Reach home 1.30am on Thurs, and about 11.30pm on Friday. Christmas is so near..I attend Zion CG last night- Christmas Party, a simple one, makan, then carolling, then gifts' exchange. Very young people, they're very funny people, see a lot of new faces in Zion. Miss the old times. Later will be attending Benji's CG Christmas at Batu Maung. After this blog, gonna swith off my computer and go home. Need to rest and prepare for tonite meeting. Oh Yeah, Monday gonna be on-leave. Hurrayyhh...want to go buy paint, and plan to repaint my house during Christmas holidays. Am so tired...
This time stock take is normal. Have more people doing counting, expecting the variance to shoot up, since only twice a year stock take. Tomorrow will be church, then after church will join Zionist for Old Folks Home outreach. The Lord be my strength...
4.00pm Saturday, here I am in the hospital, still working wor...It's our annual stock taking. Even though I'm the superior and not entitled for OT, I still stay back, yeah...why leh? Coz wanna make sure subordinate doing thing well, and to be there at least to encourage them to work.
Am so tired, for the past 2 days has not been sleeping well. Reach home 1.30am on Thurs, and about 11.30pm on Friday. Christmas is so near..I attend Zion CG last night- Christmas Party, a simple one, makan, then carolling, then gifts' exchange. Very young people, they're very funny people, see a lot of new faces in Zion. Miss the old times. Later will be attending Benji's CG Christmas at Batu Maung. After this blog, gonna swith off my computer and go home. Need to rest and prepare for tonite meeting. Oh Yeah, Monday gonna be on-leave. Hurrayyhh...want to go buy paint, and plan to repaint my house during Christmas holidays. Am so tired...
This time stock take is normal. Have more people doing counting, expecting the variance to shoot up, since only twice a year stock take. Tomorrow will be church, then after church will join Zionist for Old Folks Home outreach. The Lord be my strength...
Monday, December 11, 2006
Christmas is around the corner
11th December 2006,
1.30pm Monday. It's my lunch time, but I skipped again. Wanna loose weight but didn't have the discipline to exercise. Unlike the previous few months ago, I used to go hiking every weekend with church friends, but now after the haze incidence and raining season, we stopped the activities. The group now join Ballroom dance: Thierry, Ai Ling, Benji, Yen Shiang, Phei, etc. At least they have another new interest. I remember I only join the dance once, not purposely, but being dragged by Matt. I just don't feel comfortable holding guy to dance, and the close body contact and the touch, yucks!....Yeah yeah, I know I am conservative, very conservative. Well, I might join with future husband tho'...Hahaha...
Today pretty slow. Monday blues- need to warm up engine for the week ahead, or maybe on holidays mood- just can't wait for Christmas. Yeah, I'm looking forward for Christmas, even tho' not involving in Christmas program. I just spoke to Adrian, one of my vendor from 1st Assembly. Their church will be organising Christmas Drama on the 21st and 22nd Dec, and he will be one of the actor. As for EPCC, we will be involving in Combined Churches Open House at Fort Cornalis this 17th. EPCC incharged of opening performance. Other than that, there will be caroling in a few shopping complex- Queensbay, Gurney, Prangin. I didn't involve in any of these. CG Christmas outreach will be this weekends, I'll be joining 2 CGs Outreach, 16th (my ex-CG, lead by Benji) and 20th Abundance CG at Pr. Mei's hse. Will be inviting 2 non-Christian friends to the Party.
I also plan to take leave on 26th and 27th December, just after Christmas, maybe wanna paint house. Only plan, but still depends on whether I have time to really do it. Depends on mood...2006 gonna be over soon. This coming year 2007, I have long list of resolution, unlike 2006. It's time to make resolution and lay my plans before God...believing God for a great 2007, a year full of surprises and many many challenges- to grow in my walk with God.
1.30pm Monday. It's my lunch time, but I skipped again. Wanna loose weight but didn't have the discipline to exercise. Unlike the previous few months ago, I used to go hiking every weekend with church friends, but now after the haze incidence and raining season, we stopped the activities. The group now join Ballroom dance: Thierry, Ai Ling, Benji, Yen Shiang, Phei, etc. At least they have another new interest. I remember I only join the dance once, not purposely, but being dragged by Matt. I just don't feel comfortable holding guy to dance, and the close body contact and the touch, yucks!....Yeah yeah, I know I am conservative, very conservative. Well, I might join with future husband tho'...Hahaha...
Today pretty slow. Monday blues- need to warm up engine for the week ahead, or maybe on holidays mood- just can't wait for Christmas. Yeah, I'm looking forward for Christmas, even tho' not involving in Christmas program. I just spoke to Adrian, one of my vendor from 1st Assembly. Their church will be organising Christmas Drama on the 21st and 22nd Dec, and he will be one of the actor. As for EPCC, we will be involving in Combined Churches Open House at Fort Cornalis this 17th. EPCC incharged of opening performance. Other than that, there will be caroling in a few shopping complex- Queensbay, Gurney, Prangin. I didn't involve in any of these. CG Christmas outreach will be this weekends, I'll be joining 2 CGs Outreach, 16th (my ex-CG, lead by Benji) and 20th Abundance CG at Pr. Mei's hse. Will be inviting 2 non-Christian friends to the Party.
I also plan to take leave on 26th and 27th December, just after Christmas, maybe wanna paint house. Only plan, but still depends on whether I have time to really do it. Depends on mood...2006 gonna be over soon. This coming year 2007, I have long list of resolution, unlike 2006. It's time to make resolution and lay my plans before God...believing God for a great 2007, a year full of surprises and many many challenges- to grow in my walk with God.
Monday, December 04, 2006
December...Autumn should be ending soon
4th December 2006,
5.45pm Monday. Today pretty busy. Still in the hospital. In-Patient load seems increasing, even with extra staff doesn't seem to help, wonder what's wrong there...Didn't have the time to write blog. Usually write blog after work, but last few days, had been fetching Cindy back after work. I hire a new staff, she's Johnny's sister: Cindy Chan. Kelvin gonna be back to school soon, need more staff. Choong still on un-paid leave, I think she's now in US, hope she able to have breakthrough in whatever she is experiencing now. Work is alright, at times I do feel very inadequate, to handle staff. With the slow learner, with the inefficient staff, with those like to push job responsibilities, with those likes to complaint; with so many different characters, I will never able to handle without His Grace. I pray that God will help me to be firm when I needed to be firm, and to be flexible when necessary. It's time for Performance Appraisal, which I hated most. It's never easy to point out bad performance, some may not accept it, but it's not easy to to reaffirm and praise the strength. It's all need wisdom, how to say, what to say..and I know I'm very weak in expressing my view.
It's so complex, I discovered that human is so complex, and I'm not exceptional. Sometimes, I don't understand why I can behave as such, and how I response to issues. With different incidences, God slowly reveal to me about my characters- my strengths and weaknesses, I learn, and learn, and learn...to focus on my strength, and to use my strength and accept my weaknesses and take constructive action to improve myself. It just need so much of 'slaps' to wake the sleeping giant up. And I notice that I like to compare myself with others surroundings, and strive to please man. Yeah, to please man and not God??!!...
Yesterday sermon was good. Pastor preached his heart out in the Life in Church, about the relationship in church- which will build ones up and which will tear anothers down, for healthy growing church. It's good sermon- pointing out the common problem in church, and also happened in the society. Happened in church and outside, but the difference is church have God, God to unite, God that bind us together.
I cried again. I can't sing during the worship. Suddenly the worship songs just so strong, the words just so strong, the tears just flow, like a pipe...'pancur keluar'...Hw the Lord's love amazed me...He did not wait for me to draw near to Him..but He came to seek and save the lost. I don't consider myself lost..but probably wandering, still in the wander land, wondering I ever will be back home again.. Yeah, the autumn should be ending soon. My life's season very weird. It's against the normal cycle- it's REVERSE. The Winter has gone, and now it's Autumn, and it gonna be over soon...Autumn time supposingly to be a time of rest, rejuvenating, recharge spiritually, so that in the next season..able to withstand. Yet, my autumn has been going very slow- slowing down and going in a comfort zone, complacency, and changing into a sleeping giant. Need huge SLAP, huge Awakening to rise up. It should be over soon. By end of the year, I will decide to settle down in CG, to involve more in CGs, church and people. Not just serving, not obligation, but out of love, out of passion, out of joy....The Autumn gonna be over, which season after Autumn, I wonder....
5.45pm Monday. Today pretty busy. Still in the hospital. In-Patient load seems increasing, even with extra staff doesn't seem to help, wonder what's wrong there...Didn't have the time to write blog. Usually write blog after work, but last few days, had been fetching Cindy back after work. I hire a new staff, she's Johnny's sister: Cindy Chan. Kelvin gonna be back to school soon, need more staff. Choong still on un-paid leave, I think she's now in US, hope she able to have breakthrough in whatever she is experiencing now. Work is alright, at times I do feel very inadequate, to handle staff. With the slow learner, with the inefficient staff, with those like to push job responsibilities, with those likes to complaint; with so many different characters, I will never able to handle without His Grace. I pray that God will help me to be firm when I needed to be firm, and to be flexible when necessary. It's time for Performance Appraisal, which I hated most. It's never easy to point out bad performance, some may not accept it, but it's not easy to to reaffirm and praise the strength. It's all need wisdom, how to say, what to say..and I know I'm very weak in expressing my view.
It's so complex, I discovered that human is so complex, and I'm not exceptional. Sometimes, I don't understand why I can behave as such, and how I response to issues. With different incidences, God slowly reveal to me about my characters- my strengths and weaknesses, I learn, and learn, and learn...to focus on my strength, and to use my strength and accept my weaknesses and take constructive action to improve myself. It just need so much of 'slaps' to wake the sleeping giant up. And I notice that I like to compare myself with others surroundings, and strive to please man. Yeah, to please man and not God??!!...
Yesterday sermon was good. Pastor preached his heart out in the Life in Church, about the relationship in church- which will build ones up and which will tear anothers down, for healthy growing church. It's good sermon- pointing out the common problem in church, and also happened in the society. Happened in church and outside, but the difference is church have God, God to unite, God that bind us together.
I cried again. I can't sing during the worship. Suddenly the worship songs just so strong, the words just so strong, the tears just flow, like a pipe...'pancur keluar'...Hw the Lord's love amazed me...He did not wait for me to draw near to Him..but He came to seek and save the lost. I don't consider myself lost..but probably wandering, still in the wander land, wondering I ever will be back home again.. Yeah, the autumn should be ending soon. My life's season very weird. It's against the normal cycle- it's REVERSE. The Winter has gone, and now it's Autumn, and it gonna be over soon...Autumn time supposingly to be a time of rest, rejuvenating, recharge spiritually, so that in the next season..able to withstand. Yet, my autumn has been going very slow- slowing down and going in a comfort zone, complacency, and changing into a sleeping giant. Need huge SLAP, huge Awakening to rise up. It should be over soon. By end of the year, I will decide to settle down in CG, to involve more in CGs, church and people. Not just serving, not obligation, but out of love, out of passion, out of joy....The Autumn gonna be over, which season after Autumn, I wonder....
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